深夜了。。。

我还在做什么？？？

当每个人都睡着了。。我却开始失眠了。。。

眼睛下有着黑圆圈和眼袋。。。

我开始想你了。。

常观察电话上是否有没有讯息。。。

就算有也不是你传来的。。。

好失望哦。。。。

如果能从来，

我宁愿不认识你。。

宁愿没有你的参与。。

那我的人生还可能会是完美的。。

如果没有认识你，

那我的人生只会有快乐没有伤心。。。

从伤心那里走出来不是一两天的事。。、

此时此刻我很痛苦。。。

我好像出来。。。

我很想从新开始过我的人生。。。

就伤心的日子总是要过去。。

我也只能说

因为你让我与往常不一样。。。

因为你我终于认识到真真实实的我。。。

很自私的一个行为。。

我想保持着先在的所有的一切。。

我再也不想被改变了。。。

my life will suck without snsd..

the only happiness tat i hav right now.......

leader of snsd kim taeyeon.......

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jessica

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hyoyeon

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seohyun...

as wad i said i will nvr cry anymore.....but

i cnt do it.....

useless........

im so useless..........

no matter how long im will still wont forget u....

forever.....

i will nvr forget the pain.....

the hurt......

im so suffer....

nobody noe....

a big change in my life....

becoz of myself...

if wan blame jz blame im not good enough.....

i'm such a fool

nowadays......

i feel like i cnt trust the person beside me....

i rather keep everything in my heart.....

i feel so unsafe.....

keeping the thing in my heart more safe...

nobody will noe.....

im the one and only one tat noe the thing.....

and i cn decrease the sadness and hurt.....

i duno should i do that? ....

since the day tat i decide to gi up u....

one year friendship and few month..........\

i swear to myself tat i should not be so soft anymore....

i have no confident to do anything and any decision anymore....

i feel lik so hard......

wat meaning for life????

im jz a little human in tiz world...

nobody will realize tat im in tiz world.....

even myself...

i duno....

did i lonely???

did i happy??

did i sad???

when should i let go???

when should i open my heart???

when should i trust and believe ppl???

i have no idea.....

everything is ok if im hurt.......
i have no feeling anymore start from today.......
i will not drop a single drop of tears...........................

because im tired.......

i really really tired.........

18 years......

i know tat i had change alot...

from a little baby change into a teenager....

from tadika to college.....

attitude change from bad to worst....

i know tiz all....

i know i had change!!!!!

i jz change to sum1 tat i feel lik she/he cnt be my friends anymore.....

a friend......

a truth friend..

will nvr force a friend to do sumthing tat she/he dowan.....

i duno y......

i feel lik i wan to keep all my thing from u....

i dun lik you noe everything bout me.....

im trying to hide everything...

and the most important is im cold to u.......

dun u feel it....im avoiding u....

i avoid u...

i dun wish to cum out some word tat will hurt u.......

so i choose to avoid u...dowan reply u msg...

but...

u...

keep on find me.....

when i dowan to bother u..

u started to said i had change...

huh~~~

i dun lik to flash back the memories....

memories mean nothing to me.....

certain memories make ppl feel down....

crtain memories make ppl feel hapi...

u alwaz complain tat v are getting far compare to last time...

i duno...since last year i had less share my thing to u......

i choose to keep in my heart...

its more save to let u noe....

a little bit a little bit said i scold u...........

did i???

non at one...

i dun really lik to do sumthing tat hurt my friend.....

mayb u did it....so u terasa the word tat i wrote down....

i dowan noe ur thing..y u alwaz wan let me noe ur thing???

huh~

i had found sum1 tat really cn share my thing.......

i feel save with tat person when i share thing....

tat person will nvr betray me...i trust her alot.....

although i jz know her around 2year..

but the day tat i with her ,i will nvr forget it....

she really a nice friend...

a friend tat nvr change....

a friend tat alwaz willing to hear my thing.....giv me suggestion....

sumtime when v do sumthing,

v shall think of ppl..

not to said jz for funny funny....

a pic even a word...

can make a couple fight or break......

jz think it before u do smthing.......